reflections on the creative process

to me, creating is breathing. as i go through life, in every breath i take, i see possibilities to shift the material of my surroundings. i feel called to rearrange what is into what has not yet been. i see possibility in the mundane. as material is moved with this guided energy, new forms arise.

i think back to my prolific creative years of early childhood. when my surroundings were a tactile playground of possibility. where i found power, autonomy, and freedom in this process of creation. of getting lost in it. 

when the world was not quite right for me, i sank into my imagination. i delved into the inner possibilities. hours of drawing, writing, cutting, potion making. all in search for the inner feeling of what was right. learning what fit together, what didn't. tracing that subtle feeling of alignment. listening to myself with every cut, with every ingredient of an expansive session. i am quite jupiter led after all. 

all creators know, there is an internal drive that guides us. we sit in the seat of a chariot and the horses of creation gallop. many creators think of themselves as channels to a higher creative source. as a vessel to energy that cannot be contained. this energy flows through us, and works its way into shaping our many mediums. 

with boundless focus we catch the wind of an idea and are consumed by the beautiful power of making. if we are blessed with no interruption, it seems as if we are dancing in the realm between here and beyond.  in the true ecstatic bliss of feeling our true spirit. the honorable, revered flow state. with our bodies responding to the callings from above, we birth something new into this world. 

i often joke that i cant stop creating. that it flows through me without my own volition at times. this invisible force, like wind behind my sails, taking me to uncharted territory. 

the creator discovers trust with herself in this process. she learns what winds to follow, which ones to steer clear of. which rabbit holes are fruitful, and which ones will lead her astray. she must know how to say no. she must have strong discernment, as being a creative channel is a vulnerable place to be. she feels it all, she notices it all, she wants to shape it all. 

it is vital to take care of your precious human vessel when you are a channel of intense creative energy and life force. to come back up to the world, and to remember your soft humanity. this will charge you for when you descend into the beautiful creative depths of your soul once again.

i love to create. i love being a human. i love it all. 

for so long i was asking to be seen. see me see me see me i sang into the night. 

to be creative is a lifestyle. not always for the eyes of others. not all of it can be revealed.

not meant to see the light of day.